I am in hell. Yesterday, I ran out of patches and have no money to go buy more. So, cold turkey it is. I just about exploded last night. This sucks! Dropping the habit first definitely helped, but omfg this is horrible. It comes and goes. Like right now, I feel so out of it and all I can think of doing is smoking a cigarette. I can almost taste it! But I won't won't won't won't smoke. I didn't waste all freaking week tormenting myself for nothing. Fuck cigarettes! I don't need them.
What I do need is something to do. I'm chewing gum like a maniac, I crocheted a table runner already, and I have nothing to do tonight. Maybe I'll just sleep? I don't know. This sucks and I can't wait til this sucky suck part is over. Jesus this sucks.
No comments:
Post a Comment